Resolve

People are inclined to make resolutions at the new year, I suppose because it seems like a likely spot in time for a new beginning. I like to think we can make a new start at any time – no need to wait for the calendar. But I do enjoy the idea of a clean slate, everything from the past 365 days wiped away, starting off on a new day spotless and fresh. It’s easier to continue forward, trying to be the kind of person I aspire to if I don’t feel like I have to “make up” for anything that happened in the past; to let any regrets I have go and forgive myself any transgressions. I try very hard not to engage in activity that puts me in that position in the first place, but there are always some things that I wish I could do better. Every year I think, I’m going to remember ALL the birthdays this year! And then I fail. I think, I really want to make a career change, and then life gets in the way and it’s easier to continue on the same path, that of least resistance. I think, I would like to be less judgmental about others in general, and then some young guy walks in front of me with his pants almost to his knees, holding his belt with one hand so that they don’t fall down the rest of the way, trying to look “cool”, and there I go, being all judgy again. 

2013 was a year of new beginnings: starting a new life as a single mother, public school, and a huge move back to my home state of Oregon. I’m excited to see what 2014 has in store. My resolve is to continue opening to new beginnings, to allow possibility to have a prominent place in my life and not to close  any figurative doors out of fear, apathy or angst.

What hopeful things do you see for yourself in 2014?